Fabric, I think, is one of the hardest things to let go. It’s so full of potential.
It’s the too-big-to-throw-away bits from that lovely project you made that the kids wore to death and now you’re sick of looking at but it’s such great fabric.
It’s the piece that has never quite seemed to fit with any project but you got it for dirt cheap and now it’s starting to look at you reproachfully.
It’s the bits of a giant find at a used clothing store that you’ve used on about a million things and it never seems to get any smaller.
But then there are the terrible bits.
See, right before we had our big flood, I had decided to make Clara a beautiful coat. I bought absolutely gorgeous fabric and beautiful notions.* I carefully (obsessively carefully) cut out the pieces. I had begun piecing it together and then everything fell apart. We were in chaos for months. In the back of my mind, I knew that the coat was meant to be for that fall season. It was already pushing the season because I’d been so slow-going with the project. It was not going to fit her by the next year. But it had been crammed into the bottom of a box.
That was almost 2 years ago now. It ripped a piece of my heart out to see that project all bundled up together. All that wasted money. But, more importantly, that project I had meant to do for her so she could have a lovingly crafted one-of-a-kind coat made especially for her. And now it would be too little if I were to pull it out and finish it.
There is also a dress that is cut out and would have fit her 2 years ago.
It’s such a visceral reminder of my baby growing up, I can hardly stand it.
In case you’re champing at the bit to get your hands on these bags of fabric, I have to tell you I’ve already found them a home. My cousin is a remarkable seamstress who makes incredible MONsters from interesting fabrics. IF she wants, she can finish the coat and the dress and give them to someone who can use them. Or she could sell them. Or not. I just really can’t face them anymore.
The happy ending to this story, though, is that I really did just keep the fabric that fits one of two criterion. Either it:
is something I will 100% certainly use
is something I absolutely adore.
Now I’ll be able to find those things more quickly. Now I’ll be able to face my sewing machine again. Maybe I’ll even go on one of my sewing binges, like the year I made about 10 messenger bags:
or the year I made Clara about 3 dresses (one with matching bloomers):
I might even finish a bag project I’ve cut out pieces for. That one doesn’t hurt so much.
Day 291 scorecard: 1455 down, 370 to go
* Notions, if you’re wondering, are things like trim and buttons and zippers. All the embellishments. At least, that’s what I’ve always called notions, now that I’ve defined it, I feel compelled to go check the Internet for verification. Ah, here we go: small, useful things used in sewing. Phew.